His alarm goes off and I wake up and look towards the window.
“Thats right, we sleep with the curtain down”.
It’s an instinct I have since I lived in the countryside, to look out the window the first thing I did in the morning. Especially during fall cause I was hoping to wake up to a foggy, crisp morning.
Today it dawned on me, how much my life has changed this past year. I am happier than ever. But I realise that I let go of some things to be where I am today, and in doing so I feel I have lost my connection to nature.
I don’t sit outside with my morning coffee, and I don’t grab my camera to run out into the early fog in the mornings. Golden sunsets don’t have me rushing to the forest and I see no dancing northern lights in the evenings.
I spend them in front of Netflix instead of a with a book by the fireplace.
While I’m in the apartment I completely zone out the world on the other side of the windows. I used to be so aware of what was going on out there. But that was when I had the lake, the field and the forest as my closest neighbour.
Autumn equinox comes and goes without me noticing it.
Me and Dan lead a wonderful life here. We love our home and we often have friends over for board-game evenings. We climb a few times a week and are overall very active. But nature’s place in our lives has shrunk, and we need to find it again.
We have promised each other to take a little time every weekend to just be outside and that feels great. I don’t know for how long I will be able to live in the city though.
Fall is here and it just makes me miss it all so much…
I need nature to be there, just outside my door. I need to be able to leave my computer, get up from the desk and just wander out. Nature is fickle and ever changing, a golden sunset is not something you can plan, and you never know when fog will roll in over the fields – I have to be able to just run outside when it happens.
Seize the moment.