I’m sitting in the kitchen at my friend Linda‘s house on the countryside. I have a cup of coffee and outside the landscape is covered in fog. I’m pondering over something she asked me yesterday.
You see, she isn’t one to just talk about the weather. Unless, of course, we’re talking about the morning fog or where the best spot for catching the sunset is. No, she talks about and asks important, deeper things.
“Rania, what do you want in life right now?”
Well, that is indeed a very good question. What do I really want? I feel like my thoughts are on a hold when it comes to dreams and goals. It sounds awful but no, I’m just very much enjoying the present right now.
The last few weeks I’ve really listened to what I felt a while back, and I have been outside more, a lot more. I’ve enjoyed the beauty of autumn as much as I can and it has been lovely.
In a way it feels like I’ve gone back to being a part of the everyday grind. But I feel it’s in a good way, doing fun things. I get to work a lot with what I love right now and it’s going well. After our work days we train and climb or meet up with friends to play Magic The Gathering (a card game). During the weekends we spend time outside.
Right now, I think this is what I want. To be invested in the present, to just be and live.
I do have goals for my work and training of course, but they happen kind of parallel with my life here and now. Reaching them is a part of it. But I have to tell you, it’s very refreshing to not want something else and constant change.
A few years from now I know life will change and I have a vague idea about what I want. Or rather, I know what me and Dan value in life, what we find important and what we think constitutes a good lifestyle that we enjoy. I am confident we’ll always make choices that lead us in the right direction, and what happens right now also shape the future, so for now we just let everything be.
What do you want in life right now? Are you content with the present or working towards something?